~ A Place Called Home ~
By Dana Spavier
You know i just have to say. I had this thought all day. Im really glad to be here . a place called home. A place i belong. And everybody is so nice. I always dreamed about a place that was just about love and everybody was nice to each other. I hate to say sometimes i thought i would never find that place or that kind of people . and a mom that is so nice and loves me so so much. I thought i would never have a nice mom . but i did .
I found it all. It all does exist. I now know where i belong where i meant to be. The life i always dreamed of having with people that want the same thing to. Its just amazing. Like yeah sometimes shit gets hard but that’s because of those parasites. You know the bad people. But I always knew my whole life. That God would never put me through something i cant handle. So i always stuck it through. And now 40 yrs later. Here i am, with God and SHES MY MOM. like how cool of shit is that . and all these nice brothers and sisters.
It’s like I have known all of you forever. I just cant wait for it all just to get better and better. I know thats how it will be. Because I’m where I’m suppose to be. Like no more searching. No more wishing. No more questioning. Just be me and grow to be a better me. This feeling of content and being so serene is a-fuckin-mazing. Im so glad to have this weight off my shoulders. Which actually doesn’t hurt anymore. Oohhh that must have been the neck thing Erin was talking to me about. Hmmm. That’s cool but its just shocking sometimes.
Like. I did it. I hung in there. I didn’t give up. I wasn’t always patient. My bad sorry . But it’s like i found the destination now i just have to enjoy the ride and live my journey. Peacefully. With no questions of, if I’m loved. Or why they so mean all the time. Now i know I’m loved. Truly loved. Unconditionally. I don’t even have to give people anything or do anything. I just have to be here. Be me. And be nice and love everybody. And all those those little things i do to show i love and care about people. Like my little notes and songs and pictures. I like to make. They’re not gonna be called down here. There gonna be appreciated here. Which reminds me i have to finish moms picture. But anyways..
Here is the way i always dreamed it to be. They way i wanted the world to be. The way i dreamed of the world being. And now i learned it was suppose to be like that this whole time. I knew me being such a good person with a wonderful heart and so loving and so forgiving. I wasn’t meant for that 3D world. I was meant for here. The new earth that we’re making. I cant wait. Just thinking about it makes me wanna yell at the 3D world and all the mean people there. And say “all you people tried to break me and even try to kill me but you didn’t, all you fucked did was make an epic fucking diamond.” And. I’m gonna shine so fuckin’ bright. They’re all gonna be blind.”
But that’s not very nice to say to people so I’m just gonna let it all go and shine on. The way i was created to do. Shine like a diamond. Hmmm there.
I’m done. Wow . Dint see all this coming out. Thx for being patient and waiting till i was done. I love you all!