2015 ~ A Year of Perseverance
By Janosh, 12/30/2015
If you ask me how the past year was, then I would say: ‘Radical’. I wish I could say it another way, but I can’t get around the truth. On many levels it was quite some year. I have had wonderful highlights, but the way to these highlights seemed longer and more intensive than ever before. Often it was accompanied by struggle either concerning my surroundings or myself. Nothing happened easily, that is how it felt. It was constantly persistence, persistence and more persistence. And then when you finally feel ready to pluck the fruits of your labor, then something happens to distract you. Misfortune, disappointment, discussions and also major events in the world. And they were always at that moment when you really did not need it: for example just before a journey or an important event. You are trying your hardest to keep focused or just to keep standing, but in the meantime it feels as if you are being held back more and more. Just as if you have to work even harder to get similar things done. Not really surprising that I end 2015 with the frequency Perseverance, that puts everything into perspective for me.
It all began earlier in the year. I was in a phase where I was looking for renewal (this website is the result amongst other things). In this search you go exploring and try here and there to find inspiration. What is the right course? Which choices should you make? Which risks are you going to take? In such a phase it is really important to stay close to yourself and to be honest: often I wasn’t. There was so much happening, so many projects and plans, that I hardly had the space to really feel what I wanted. The result was that I allowed myself to be told everything by people who thought they had the answer for me. From all corners I received unrequested advice on how I should do something, what my next step should be and what I should release, where I should invest and so on and so on. From policy plans to dress code: On all fronts I was told what to do. It made me feel claustrophobic!
My reaction to the majority of this ‘well-meant’ advice was: ‘oh just let it go’. I gave people their wish. I laid my trust in their hands. Not particularly because I believed in their tactics, but to avoid even more discussion. I was really fed up of always having to defend myself, because it felt like a waste of time. I have had to speak to so many people and pacify them. How often have I had to listen to the fact that I wasn’t doing it right, I should do it differently etc. Yes, I have received quite a lot of criticism in 2015 and I have not always dealt with it in the right way. Happily I can say that I have learnt a lot. They say that you learn the most when you regularly make mistakes. In light of that it has been a special educational year.
A new energy
I don’t want to come across as a ‘poor little me’ but it has kept me very preoccupied. How it is possible that I always seem to be in conflict with my surroundings? What is not right in this story? I want to work with people who have passion, who dare to stick their necks out and dare to speak their truth about how they want to change this hard world. Not people who constantly antagonize you and find problems before they even exist but people who are willing to roll up their sleeves and set something in motion. I was really happy when at exactly the right time a couple of these types of people came to join my team. Their spirit was greatly needed to start up a new energy; otherwise I would have never achieved the beautiful creations that have happened in 2015. I am talking about: Echo System, Janosh App, the new website, an improved Energetic Therapy, the Energy Bracelet and the return of the Webinars.
If I summarize, it has been a lovely and fruitful year. But as I said earlier every highlight has been a battle. I felt as if I had to fight even harder. I had to continually struggle to get things done and that was tough. It seemed as if everyone had something to say about how I should do things. Often I have scratched myself behind my ears with the question: Is this really fun? Am I really getting energy from this? Is the price not too high for what I want to share with the world?
Away from all the noise
What gave me many insights in 2015 (and in some cases kept me going) were the journeys. It was lovely just to get away from all the noise and especially to visit the places where you can just let go of the earthly planes. I so enjoyed the trips to Montserrat in Spain. The energy there is just incredible. Just as if time is standing still and you are given the chance to put everything into place. I received many insights on the mountains about how we mirror one another in our behavior. This was the beginning of Echo System, after which I received many more insights.
My personal highlight was certainly the journey to Belucha. Everyone who was there and those I speak to, say the same. Belucha has changed my life. It was without any doubt the toughest challenge I have ever undertaken, but this does not in any way compare to what it gave to me as a human being. It was an unforgettable experience, in total vulnerability to begin a dialogue with yourself, in an area, which has such an enormous energetic vibration. For everyone who was there: sincere thanks for your love, trust and surrender. It was a spectacular journey!
When I got home, my whole world looked different. I had to get used to my surroundings and that was not easy. After Belucha I had to take the time to settle down again and absorb my new insights of which there were many! I saw the light again, but my surroundings didn’t find it easy either. The resistance was there even when I left and it had only got greater. The old song seemed to keep repeating because the same discussions began again. It was virtually impossible to be in harmony with one another. There was conflict again about the smallest of things and I rapidly lost the spirit of Belucha.
What I wish for 2016
Right up to the end of 2015 I have discussed almost literally everything. Each and every small or large decision had to go through the wheel of arguments and criticism before anything actually happened. Wonderful plans have been thrown into the bin, purely because they were discussed and debated far too much for far too long. Everyone has something to say about it and it lost its spontaneity and energy. If something was easy it felt strange. I got so used to the fact that everything came with conflict. I have often asked myself if this is something that needs change or if I just have to accept it. I didn’t know anymore.
When I began this blog, it was a radical year. I have made many changes and to be able to achieve this I needed perseverance. Everything has been a battle. But at the very end of 2015 I received something suddenly that made me feel that I was no longer alone. Someone said to me: “What I wish for 2016 is more rest. I wish that everyone would take the time to really feel something before we all start reacting to one another”.
To me this felt like a gift. It was just as if this person had been sent to tell me this. Finally someone who thinks the same as I do! We react so fast and without any thought. We don’t allow the words from others to sink in. We don’t take the time to really feel what we truly think. We hear one another, but we don’t listen. We are present but absent at the same time. Our thoughts are always somewhere else, which means that we don’t fully understand one another. In the fast pace of our lives we have forgotten to make a real connection. We are programmed to scream, to convince and to judge. And what a lot of noise we all make together!
At the end of 2015 I got my answer. I came back to my source and why I do this work. The strange thing was that I needed the conflict with my surroundings to come to this realization. Thanks to all the discussions I began to see what it really all about. What is really important for our current development? My answer can be concluded in just four words: from heart to heart. This is what I believe and why I do what I do. It’s true that I end every presentation and every piece of writing in this way but I had forgotten the value of these four words.
What we want is to feel one another. We want to share with one another, not from our minds, but from heart to heart. In our awkward attempts to achieve that the challenge is to keep it simple. Many conversations fizzle out in complex discussions because people just don’t take the time for one another. Because people just don’t ask the right questions. Because people don’t make a heart connection. What is wrong with just asking someone how they are? What is wrong just giving someone the time to share their story? Some stories are wonderful, too sensitive and too vulnerable to just answer. They are revelations, which ask so much more than ‘I like that’. Someone has travelled quite a path. He or she has gone through something. Respect that process by being silent, just being and listening. Feel the words. Feel the vulnerability. You cannot give someone a greater pleasure than taking the time for him or her.
Let next year be a year when you no longer go looking for your equality, but for heart connection. Give one another the space and allow feelings to come to the surface. I wish you a wonderful 2016 and hope to meet you somewhere along the way.
If you want to know where I usually find my inspiration, then click here.
From heart to heart