LoveHasWon Testimonial~My Experience With Mother God Over the Last 10 Years
By Gwen Kaiser
I’d like to share the unique perspective I’ve had of mom and my own experience over the last ten years. In all that time I never fell out of touch with her. I looked at Mom like, she’s here to do her job and I’m here to do mine. All though I didn’t fully understand her mission, I did recognize the magnitude of her being God.
I found mom in 2011 after hearing a Robo-voice video that led me to the Galactic Free Press… The words were like nothing I had ever heard and they made total sense. I was hooked. I voraciously devoured every video I could find from this source. Don’t think I’ve missed a single video Mom has ever made, apart from her Angel Dance Parties. All though I never stayed the whole party, I was fascinated to watch Mom dance. I could see her bringing in the codes with her hands and arms, but at that time I wasn’t sure what exactly she was doing.
Shortly after stumbling upon these videos, I went to my sister’s wedding in March 2011, in Canon city, Colorado (two hours from Crestone). I was struck by an unspeakably beautiful painting hanging in the airport… I’m an artist, and rarely buy other people’s artwork because I make my own. But I needed to have this painting! I was somewhat haunted by it. When I finally inquired as to the cost of it, $600 was way out of my league and I had to let it go. But, to this day, I still wish I had figured out a way to buy it. The image remains so clear in my mind. And it was only a few months ago when it finally dawned on me that it was of a WHITE BUFFALO! Ding dong! I am a bit slow… still working on my retard programming lol.
For 10 years I have told many about Mother God… Each time I was left baffled that no one resonated with her messages in the same way I did. My friend Christine–who I am certain is a member of the 144,000–did exclaim upon watching Mom’s video, “Oh my god, who is this woman? I must meet her! And, I have never wanted to meet anyone I didn’t know. I could care less about celebrities but, Gwen, we have to take a road trip and visit her!” Well that was quite early on and like all the others, Christine fell away, along with the original timeline of the Divine Plan…
Had it not been for thetahealing (which is healing with the Creator of All that Is, who is Mom’s higher self), I too, would have fallen away… But in my thetahealing visions, I found that they often paralleled Mom’s most recent posts or videos… For example, the healing would have a Wizard of Oz theme when Mom was just talking about the Wizard of Oz. And like Pops says, coincidence is an illusion… I have always followed the signs I’ve received.
I learned that I had to be careful with whom I shared this information after the carpenter who was building my rabbit sanctuary walked off the job simply by me sharing the truth of Mom with him. To this day, many my family and many friends still think I am in a cult. The team speaks of being attacked for supporting Mom. Yes, my computer and website have been so hacked, so many times, that the computer techs can never believe it. My friend has stopped being shocked when I tell her about the latest appliance/car/device/etc. to act up in my life. But, these attacks have been mere inconveniences, for I have always been aware that I am protected, even before I found Mom. A bit of a daredevil, but a pussy at the same time haha. But Mom, well nothing can come within a fraction of comparison to the marathon of ruthless, grueling, unrelenting attacks she has endured.
In 2005 my fiancé cheated on me. I moved in with my parents. I burned their house down with my two cats dying in the blaze. Those events left me extremely depressed. But that’s when the synchronicities started in earnest… I was taking a screenprinting class in Manhattan and a fellow student said he woke up craving Indian food and then I came along and we ended up having dinner in an Indian restaurant (my favorite food is Indian.) He explained to me that was called synchronicity. I said, come again what? The next morning I read my Daily Om spiritual column and the heading was Synchronity, and the whole page was dedicated to explaining it. I was like, woah… In 2007 I saw a psychic (Justine Keznner) that I had saved the phone number of from five years prior in a magazine clipping… Something told me I must save her number, and I did… The first time I met with this psychic she said “Oh I have a facial recognition of you.” I was like, huh? She went on to say, “you’re late”… I said late for what? She said “I don’t know, but your guides are telling me that you’re late and you need to move forward with you plans now.” I was tired of working for the man and other people getting rich off my creative gifts, so I had been planning on quitting my job and starting my own business for a few years now and was dragging my feet… My plan was to build up my business, sell it, and start an animal sanctuary with the windfall. Justine went on to tell me that St. Germain was very connected to me and I asked her who that was? She said, he’s one of the big guys. I wasn’t sure what I was late for, but I knew I didn’t want to miss the boat, so I abruptly resigned from my lucrative shoe design job shortly thereafter, to the shock of everyone. If there’s something I do well, it’s burn bridges. My earth mom calls me “the destroyer.” Had we been on the original 2012 Divine timeline I believe my business would’ve been a success but instead I was plunged into the worst poverty I have ever known and a bankruptcy I never recovered from.
Sometime in the 2000’s my friend told me about the end of the Mayan calendar in 2012 and she was surprised to see that I knew nothing about it. I was like, end of the world what? In 2009 I attended my first solstice meditation. I felt a huge being come into the space. My 75 year old friend Joyce, explained this was likely a being named Gaia. Like Mom, I had no idea who that was. I researched it, and for the next few years, I went to intuitives, astrologers (Bob Marks), numerologists, a multitude of healers and anyone I felt could help me figure out what to do with myself. I asked everyone I could what was going on to make this world so fucked up? Since I was a child my father had always told me stop asking questions and I could never change the world. But I kept asking, with no good answer… until my 70 year old hairdresser in the early 2000s came along. She said, Gwen, someone once told me that it’s malignant aliens. This person claims we were invaded a long time ago. I don’t know but maybe there’s something to that… I was like WHAT. And the more I thought about it, the more it made sense, simply because nothing else did. In 2005 I remember watching an episode of Mission Impossible with my parents where the attacker received a phone call and was given a code word. That triggered her to commit the crime. It started to dawn on me that what I had just seen on TV might be real. I couldn’t stop thinking about it. It was in 2008 when I saw Alex Collier’s reptilian video that I realized what was really going on. I immediately started telling everyone the truth I had discovered, and of course, I was laughed at. Par for the course.
By 2010 my beloved business had tanked and the financial trauma was so severe that when I finally put that blade to my wrist, Justine the pshyic–who at this point had become my business confidante–told me she could no longer help me. She told me I needed real help, and to try thetahealing. Well, I took her advice, and thetahealing changed my life. It was only a few months after my first eye-opening seminar that I found Mom. One of the downloads I got was “Creator’s perspective of how it feels to know how to smell truth.” I took to thetahealing like a fish to water.
In the first ThetaHealing seminar I took, Creator of All that is (Mom’s higher self) announced that Humanity was late. A few years later, I was doing a healing on someone and Creator said to me, she is late. My teacher and I constantly exchanged frustrations over how no one here in New York seemed to be waking up. My teacher, Ellen Cohen, is a warrior. She was like, well Gwen, that means we must focus even more on introducing everyone to the Creator of All that is! Students would fly in to Ellen’s long island office for seminars from around the globe. But rarely from New York and the surrounding areas. I realized there was something was going on with Americans. It was when I discovered Kangen water back in 2007, that I figured out people would prefer to remain unhealthy. They actually wanted to be sick. I fell in love with Kangen water and became a reseller. This alkaline water miraculously healed my ailments and I encouraged everyone to try it. But strangely, almost no one wanted any part of it! I found that the more educated they were, the less they open they were to it. The blue collar folks and less educated types were more into learning about my Kangen water. This is also when I realized that the people who think they got everything figured out, completely close themselves off. This theme is now repeating itself with Trump, and of course Mom too. I had an opportunity to get my Kangen water on prime time news as my friend worked at Fox News. I was all set to go on air when I got a panicked phone call from corporate. They forbid me to go on air or they would cut me off from the Kangen water. They said, don’t you understand? This is America! WOW. Dr. Phill much?
I can’t remember the exact date I first spoke to Mom, because all though I had meticulously kept a diary my entire life, all of a sudden I no longer had time to keep It up. How’s that for EGO?! Mom’s first words to me were, “how can I help you?” I was like, I don’t know, you told me to call you lol… She went on to say that I was a second waver, which I was relieved to hear that as I certainly didn’t want the pressure of being a first waver. Mom instructed me to meditate for 20 minutes a day. For the first few months I did, but I found it quite difficult. She also said, “you will come here.” I was like hmmnn… really? I eagerly awaited that trip, but it never did come.
My life changed drastically since I found Mom and thetahealing, which was almost simultaneous. I went from party girl to social hermit. From one-night stands to celibacy. From binge shopping to dumpster diving. I was talking to my friend Joyce in 2013 and she told me that my guides said to “get ready.” I was like, uhm… why? My astrologer, Bob Marks, echoed the same sentiment (I had started getting my charts done twice yearly). My teacher told me that I had a big “divine timing” coming up… Well, it was not long after that I was literally thrown into the animal rescue world (that I had very consciously avoided as I knew it was a high stress lifestyle). Animals were landing on my head, my bed, and anywhere they could squeeze themselves into my life. Anywhere I turned, there was an animal in need. Overwhelming was an understatement and for the last eight years it has only intensified. But it did give me a reason to get out of bed in the morning. I had found my calling. I’m contracted to stay out here and help clean things up in 3D before making my way to Mom physically.
I started traveling twice a year to enhance my astrological alignments. It really worked! I cross-crossed the country over the span of about six or so years, unwittingly following in Mom’s wake. I went twice to Canon City, CO, and both times Mom was in Mt. Shasta, CA. When I went to Mt. Shasta, Mom was in Crestone. I travelled to Miami, FL twice, and missed Mom both times. I hit New Orleans, LI twice, Houston, TX, San Antonio, TX, Tucson, AZ (I still don’t know why I was sent there because Mom never talks about Arizona), I went to Hawaii, Alaska twice (also unsure as to the significance of this location), and twice to Barbados (who knows why again). But I see now that I was either collecting codes from Mom, leaving codes for Mom, or delivering or collecting codes for Mom.
I watched in horror as Mom pleaded for money on her videos. I was disgusted to see the lack of support. I couldn’t understand why people just couldn’t give a lousy buck or two. I was painfully broke myself, but managed to eek out a monthly donation of $10-15… It sounds like nothing now but I was really struggling back then. I would send Mom little packages every once in a while too. I’ll never forget that one video where she said she was hanging by a thread… I couldn’t believe that God had to beg for money. It truly made me sick.
I was absolutely enthralled by Mom and fascinated by the little nuggets she would drop in each video. I text Mom once, when are you going to make a new video? I can’t wait! She said, yes, soon, the angels have been telling me to… Often I would say, please angels, have Mom make another video! And voila, one would appear not too long after! I waited on each video with baited breath and watched it several times over.
On a later call with Mom, she told me that I was a first waver. I thought to myself, oh she’s not God after all. She doesn’t know what she’s even saying, she told me I was a second waver. I quizzed her on this and she answered that she simply couldn’t see the first wave back then. Her answer made sense to me. So… She was still God lol. Mom always answered the phone, “Hello Angel.” I never realized it was because I really was an angel. Now I understand why I always saw wings on people when I did thetahealings on them. At one point, Mom got a dog named Angel…
Many of the tales and teachings that the team recites on livestream I was lucky enough to hear firsthand from mom. I would check in with her about once a year, either calling, texting or emailing. This was outside of participating in the Tiny Chat room which Mom was frequently in, that the skype YIPPEE chat has replaced today. I watched perplexed, as each of the many fathers came and went. When I asked her, Mom later told me that Grandpa Coyote was a “plant.” And that Russell was serving Lilith and had put a spell on her. For the life of me I could not understand why Mom was so intent on finding this Father God person. After all, I had completely axed men from my life altogether. Archaea Aurora will understand that with Scorpio in my Venus at zero degrees, they were not a good thing for me ha-ha. (Sun in Capricorn, Moon in Taurus, Scorpio Rising).
I spoke to mom on the phone one day and she said “I saw two suns today.” and I said oh, what does that mean? If I recall correctly, she said she didn’t know… She told me how she had walked into a shop in Crestone and told the owner she was God. The owner had said, no you’re not. Mom had said ok, and walked out. Mom explained to me how Humanity’s fall had occurred, and I asked her if I was an Atlantean? She replied that no I wasn’t because if I were, I wouldn’t even be able to talk to her. Even though I followed all the same lightworkers as Mom: Cobra, Blossom Goodchild, KP, Lisa Gawlas, Denise Lefay, etc., not a single one of them spoke like Mom. Her information was next level. I was all set for the alien landing back in… was it 2012? I dunno. But I was telling everyone that Drake said to get ready for the aliens and NESARA and damn, here we are still! My friends scoff at me now and call me a broken record for saying the same thing for a decade. I’m like old grandpa at the dinner table reciting the same story every holiday. Yea, I also learned in thetahealing that I thought I was a man lol. The team speaks of everyone being overmasculinated. Yup.
I thought Archangel Michael was most amusing. One day on the stream he mentioned how they had to eat off of chipped dishes… Oh, the horror! Ha-ha I still chuckle about this. I thought to myself, only an archangel from the highest heights of Heavenly Heaven would be disturbed by chipped Earthly dishes. Lol. As for Mother Mary, I can’t remember when she first appeared on video, but I do clearly remember thinking how she was definitely Jesus’s mother from the way she spoke…. Very “motherly…”
One day Mom told me that EGO had stolen everything from her in Florida. I didn’t really understand what she meant by that so I just listened. Now, years later, I finally get it. Sometime earlier I had read in The Secret Language of Birthdays by Gary Goldschneider (great book btw), that when I spoke it was just my EGO’s way of asserting itself. This really struck a nerve in me. Horrified, I vowed to speak less and listen more. I guess I should have asked Mom more questions and I should have passed along psychic messages that my friend Joyce got for her. But I didn’t want to upset Mom, or risk that Joyce might be wrong. I just felt Mom knew what to do and didn’t need my two cents. Perhaps it was a fear of criticism, as I have been criticized by my parents my whole life. Archaea Faith has since told me that is the “savior programming.” Sorry Mom.
Mom thanked me for supporting her once on the phone, and I said you’re welcome and assumed it was for the $15 or so I had donated. As usual, Mom read my mind. She said, I am also referring to the energetic support. I was like, oooohhhhh…. Wow, that would have never occurred to me! Energetic support. I hardly knew what that meant and I certainly don’t believe I had ever even heard that expression before.
I emulated Mom and her style when she went through her “third eye crystal phase.” I started wearing a necklace on my forehead like Mom did lol. One time while I was on the phone with mom and we were about to hang up she said oh, you’re receiving a gift! I was like, cool! She went to on to inform me that I would have two Galactic’s spend the day with me. She told me that the Galactics loved me. I was quite flattered by that haha. But I didn’t really notice their presence that day…
When Mom started doing implant removals, I was all up in there! I also had implant removals done by Alexander Meadors and I arranged the same for my friend Joyce. Joyce said that Mom’s healing blew Meador’s healing out of the water, the difference was BEYOND COMPARISON. To this day I don’t feel much, so it’s hard for me to feel anything from anyone. We were all on Tiny Chat as usual and Mom was real time typing me what she was seeing on the screen. I almost died. Here I was reading about aliens creatures in me, having baby aliens, hatching inside of me, and implants covering my heart, brain, groin, and so forth. I was in appalled. Interestingly, Mom shared with me that my implants were dissolving on their own. I don’t feel she told anyone else this, as we all got to watch each other’s healings on the Tiny Chat screen, and I feel the ThetaHealing I was constantly doing on myself was responsible for the dissolution. Mom banged those bitches out in five minutes though. We would get on “line” and wait hours for our turn to come up. Tiny Chat with Mom was a lot of fun back then…
I noticed something very unusual about Mom when she did healings and that was that she laughed and joked and appeared to not even be concentrating on the task at hand. I had never seen any other healer act in this way while working on someone. I could not understand how this was possible. But I thought it was cool and I started to mimic Mom’s behavior in my own healings that I would perform on people and animals. Now I realize that Mom was communicating with St. Germaine or Kryon or the Galactics. But I didn’t quite comprehend it back then. Mom was unable to perform a healing on anyone that didn’t give direct permission. So, apart from Joyce, my now almost 80 year old friend, I didn’t have anyone that would allow such a thing. Except for my brother in law… I waited til he was tipsy one night and said, hey, let’s have Mother God do a healing on you! He said, OK! So, Mom did the healing real time on the screen and holy shit balls, he had handcuffs on, and those metal chain things on his ankles, and all sorts of crazy vows that Mom dissolved, like with the Mafia and others that I can’t remember. Now I fondly think of my brother in law as a neanderthal, so when Mom told me that he was actually a “blueprinter” I was floored. I said, uhm a blueprinter? Doesn’t that mean he is pretty like high up on the totem pole? My memory gets a little fuzzy here, but I think Mom said that yes, he was one of the original souls to design Earth, or something like this. All I know is that I was blown away. And that’s when I learned that the dumbest vessel can house the most evolved soul.
One time mom told me that I was going to start working with horses, and sure as shit all of a sudden horse cruelty cases came galloping into my life from every direction… I said no, no, Universe, I am not ready for horses yet, for I have not completed the rabbit work! And just like that, POOF, the horses vanished… I am guessing that my higher self switched up my contract with Mom and extended my work with rabbits. Had we still been on the original divine plan timeline, my rabbit work would have been completed and it would have been time to move on to something else. But, as we all well know, everything had been delayed and the plan had changed… When I questioned Mom, she stated that love works in mysterious ways…
Mom once told me she was having trouble eating… And I told her I wished I would have trouble eating! She replied in an unusually sharp tone: “no you don’t want this.” I knew it was serious… On Tiny Chat, I was most amused one day when some guy said, this is God? Damn! God’s HOT. I was hysterical, because Mom was a hot tamale. Gorgeous, voluptuous, sensual, confidant, the whole kit’n’caboodle. Who woulda thought that God would be a hottie. To me, Mom looked exactly as Eve would look. She reminded me of the woman floating on the shell in Botticelli’s “Birth of Venus” painting. Of course Mom is still beautiful but she has taken quite a toll physically. Once, I asked Mom if she would like a healing to help her feel better? She said, no thank you. I think she punctuated her reply with a “What can I do for you.” Or, “How are you doing?” Well, fast forward about 6 years or so and Mom did accept some healing work from me. Who knows if it helped even a smidge, but it just goes to show how invincible Mom felt when she was fresh on mission. The first time I saw Mom in a wheelchair in Florida I hysterically cried. I still do whenever she makes an appearance. It is DISPICABLE what Humanity has done to her. Not saying I’m perfect but at least I showed up, on time. Mom would say this a lot, thanks for showing up. Again, I didn’t grasp the gravity of these words back then…
Once, in the Tiny Chat room with mom… Somebody was talking about their dog, and how they had rescued it from a ditch and it was acting out behaviorly. She was probably gonna have to get rid of it. I volunteered myself to work on thetahealing the dog. Mom said Great! This being is going to work on your dog for you… And the person was so happy… And to this day I am disgusted with myself because I did not work on that poor dog and I hate to think what happened… Lack of integrity… I’m sorry mom… That’s one reason I love Mom’s Divine Trait oracle cards: INTEGRITY: to honor one’s word. Right there in your face, lest you forget.
Just before Faith arrived on mission, I spoke to Mom. She was super excited. I could feel her bouncing up and down through the phone. She told me that the givers were gathering and I was “GET HERE NOW!” After I hung up the phone I thought to myself, OK, if I am really meant to gather with the others, the signs will come. Well, no signs came. So neither did I.
In 2018, I called Mom for the last time. We spoke briefly about how I had just witnessed some extreme animal neglect and the police were unwilling to do anything about it… Mom said, that’s intense. All of a sudden, Father grabbed the phone and said, I’m sorry but Mom can’t talk to you anymore. You are calling from a very dense place and it’s just too much for her. I said, yea, it is dense. In fact, it was a terribly neglected feral cat colony with about 75 starving, breeding, diseased, homeless cats. The owners were almost as fucked up as the cats. Proud to say, over the next two years I saw to it that every cat was spayed and neutered, and kittens rehomed. If only people would fix their pets, I wouldn’t have to spend my days and nights taking in unwanted animals. As Aurora mentioned, all of our contracts have been increased to pick up the slack. Mom’s was increased by something like a million times, if I am getting that right. I am certain my contract out here in 3D was never supposed to be this brutal. Sometimes I wouldn’t wish my life on my worst enemy. But the only way out, is through. I always wondered, why bother? Just blow Earth up and be done with it. Ugh! I simply couldn’t understand why go to all the trouble to save it? Then one day, not too long ago actually, it finally came to me… Creator (Mom) loved Earth so much and would do anything to save it. It was out of the deepest Love. That revelation has really helped me soldier on…
The synchronicities I used to get with Mom, and still do, started to happen with the team as well. For example, on stream a few years back, the phone all of a sudden overheated and turned off. But there was no hot sun, in fact it was chilly. When I got the phone back on again, Aurora was describing how the same exact bizarre event happened on her phone, and that’s why the stream cut short. Phone overheated. That’s when I knew that the energy from the team, was directly connected to us, out here in 3D. This continues today. Just this week I was out shopping and saw chocolates. I felt Mom would love them as a gift but declined to buy them because I figured Mom wasn’t eating chocolate anymore. Well, I hop on skype and Mom’s throwing out these links for chocolate! So, did she catch my thought or did I catch hers? All I know is that this sort of thing happens constantly. We are all so connected.
So those are my conversations with God, and now here’s a little more about me if you care ha:
Born on Joan of Arc’s birthday, Little Christmas. My name Gwen, translates to Holy. Yah! Can I get a gold star over here lol. Listening to the team recount Mom’s childhood, I see now some interesting parallels. Like Mom, I stayed busy. Mom stayed way, way, way, busier of course, but I would go to school, go home and clean up the barn animals and then workout as a competitive gymnast for hours, almost every day of the week. And when I wasn’t doing this, my mom was showing me how to garden, cook or make crafts. Her rule was if you’re sitting still, you should be doing something at the same time. I travelled to Scotland every other summer, many of my fondest memories were on the same Isle of Lewis that Donald Trump’s mother was from. Blondie’s, The Tide is High, was one of my favorite songs when I was little (another of Mom’s favorites). Mom was Helen Keller, and even though I was only in 2nd grade my teacher was shocked to see me plow through that novel which was 5th grade reading. I think it was 1996 when I found the Celestine Prophecy. Everyone was talking about it! Read it in a matter of days and boy did it blow my mind. My dad was an atheist and would tell me regularly that the only God was the All Mighty Dollar. But every night I would pray to the God that I knew did exist. Never stepped in a church my whole life except once with a friend, but aced Religion in school with straight A’s. Was so dumb in math I had to repeat it, literally, five times. I ended up taking math classes with younger students. But yet, I again got straight A’s in Geometry. All these bizarre things make so much sense, now. Always a believer in magic, fairies, angels and such, I was a very good spellcaster. Until I found out I shouldn’t be doing that. Oops! Archeia Faith may have visited 53 countries, but I have had 53 jobs lol. I have done almost every kind of work, from trying my hand as an escort (epic FAIL) to cleaning toilets, from being a construction worker to world traveler (China in particular), from sales calls to bartending, from performing to office cubicle, I could never stand to be in the same job for long. Growing up on small farm and an avid artist, I would spend the bulk of my time drawing or hang out with the animals. I never took pharmaceuticals in all of my 49 years, all though I did my fair share of drugs, and had it not been for my strong connection to the animals, I would 100% have been lost in this world and would never have found Mom. I’ve always just “known” things. From day one, I told my parents I was going to have an animal sanctuary. And, that everything would one day be A-OK one day on this troubled planet. That day is right around the corner, thanks to MOM!